1month

it's been a month since the end of stpm. i guess it's reason (and guilt) enough to force myself to type through this post and give an update.

so many things have happened in this one month. i could hardly have any time to breathe. lots of good moments. as well as a handful of eye-opening moments.

i just got back from cy's bday celebration which was planned uber last minute. remind me not to ever bite more than i can chew next time. thankfully mum n dad were being lenient and not giving me a rough time for skipping some activities im supposed to go. but nevertheless, it was worth seeing woofyian bark like an ass (decode it. haha)

time to account the things i did for the past month...

prom was fantastic. food was average. company was awesome. could never go wrong with good friends around you. though there were a few stuff that happened before prom that made me and a few others feel ticked off, but nah, we set our priorities straight, to have fun. not gonna let some pests ruin my first prom.

charity movie screening was very well organised. juniors managed to collect 7k for charity. the t-shirts they made damn chun, iWant sial. then the farewell dinner the juniors organised for us seniors was very awesome as well. dont know why, but there's this sense of respect we have for each other, between the juniors and seniors, compared to other clubs which are having problems.

then there's hanging out with morons like chunyian, yeong, lem, sanjiv, shob, chai, etc etc... asyik crash each other's crib. syok giler. though things are gonna slow down a bit cos some working, some go kl (haha)

anila's xmas open hse was pleasant. i enjoyed the food. and her bitch. Cleopatra. though the fella tanggal bulu non-stop. cy kept sneezing. ironic since they're of the same kind... hmm...

those were pretty much the 'exciting' events la. other daily stuff were mediocre plan boring stuff any student on break would do.

onto the eye-opening shit, i've come to realise some friendships i put my trust wholly into arent what they seem to be. it's quite disheartening indeed la. though, the reasons of the fallout were all about me. i did this. i did that. reality check, do some reflection on your side too la... hopefully you'll come to realise you're over-reacting or being over-sensitive.

and then pulak, ada jenis yang treat frens like baju. keep changing. not that i have anything against it. your life man. but seriously, treat people better la. friends are humans too. maybe u feel you're superior to all of us. but you're not. deep down you're really ugly. i get so digusted. i eat also i throw up (kumar drag queen. ring a bell? haha)

there are those who are being unreasonable as well. i believe each of us are at where we are due to how we carried ourselves over the years. you cant expect to be getting holiday wishes if you dun send them out in the past. i mean, i wudnt give a shit whether my bestest friend sends me a merry xmas or happy new yr text. or you cant be expecting to get invites when you always turn them down in the past even though the person personally invited and PERSUADED you to come. dun get me started on going missing and never informing anyone where u've been and when u'll be back and expect an invite.

why am i saying all this? not because im trying to be dogmatic, or boast about how great a person i am. cos im not. but maybe in these certain aspects, yes im better than you. but how i wish you'd just reflect. reflect on the things you've said or done. maybe now you'll not see it. but i do hope in the future you would.

ah man... i dun feel good about half the things i've typed. im contemplating on whether or not to post them. but i've been keeping quiet for too long. sometimes, a taste of their own medicine is what they need to get them thinking.

Punch out.

Nick